Book of the month….

So finally after 4 years of waiting I finally got this book…” Silent Partner by Dina Matos McGreevy” this book came out in 2007 however I heard about it in 2008 on The Oprah Winfrey Show, and since then I have been waiting for this book to be available in India. So finally on my birthday I saw this available on Flipkart and I asked my friend YD to order it for me. Well since I got it I have only been able to read the first chapter but I really am looking forward to finish this one….

Here is what the book is all about.

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The truth behind the lies.It was an unforgettable scene. Dina Matos McGreevey, an attractive woman in her mid-thirties, wife, mother, and First Lady of the state of New Jersey, watched silently as her husband, then New Jersey Governor Jim McGreevey, resigned his office with the revelation that he was a "gay American." The picture of grace and loyalty, perfectly composed in her pale blue suit, Dina Matos McGreevey gave no sign of the tangled mixture of fear, sorrow, and anger she felt that day, no hint of the devastation that was to come. Since then she has been asked repeatedly about the nature of her marriage, about what she knew and when she knew it. Since then, she has remained silent. Until now.

Speaking up at last, Dina Matos McGreevey here recounts the details of her marriage to Jim McGreevey. What emerges is a tale of love and betrayal, of heartbreak and scandal . . . and ultimately, hope.

It all began with so much promise. Dina Matos was a responsible and civic-minded young woman who fell in love with the passion of political action. When Jim McGreevey walked into her life, he appeared to be a kind and loving man, someone with whom she could build a life based on shared ideals, a strong spiritual commitment, and a desire to make a difference in the world. Beyond their initial chemistry, Dina Matos was attracted by Jim McGreevey's principles and his unwavering devotion to his work. She didnt know that his life, and thus their marriage, were built on a foundation of lies; that his past was littered with casual sexual encounters in seedy bookstores and public parks; or that, by his own admission, he began an adulterous affair with another man while she was in the hospital awaiting the birth of their child. "Could I have known," she asks "How could I have known"

With scalding honesty, she tells of her life with the former governor, of the politics and public service that brought them together, and the lies that tore them apart.

Here is a story of a marriage that was anything but happily-ever-after, told by a strong and resilient woman who can, and finally will, speak for herself

Happy to u Aarti!!!

So finally its Aarti's Birthday today well did not really plan much of it as things lately have been super busy in our lives i guess, along with that out of all weekends this was the weekend Dodo planned to shift her house so imagine her birthday weekend is being spent while packing....lol!!! However coming to the point we did manage to slip in sometime to celebrate hehehe.... Well this post is just for her she is my best friend well i guess we are soul sisters that's the best phrase for us LOL!!! I just hope all her wishes come true including her wishes for me hehehehe.... 

SO here you go Aarti Ahuja!!! 

Happy Birthday my Lovely Bitchy Friend!!!

So i framed this for her!!! 

My Family!!!

Just wanted to do a quick post on my parents... Somehow lately i have been missing them a lot, i guess the cause of that could be the way i have been feeling lately. To be precise i have been super lost and confused lately and i know it deep down inside me that if my parents were here with me they would have solved all my queries and shown me the right path.

Daddy n Mum on their Wedding!!!

Who can fight with destiny i lost them in 2005, ever since then i have been on my own and overtime i found myself lost, all i had to do was close my eyes choose a path, always felt that they are right besides me in all my decision. I know its stupid but that's how i felt. Some how lately i cant get those visions i don't see my parents guiding me anymore. Now maybe i could be because i probably don't think like a teenager anymore LOL!! However that does not solve my problems, sometimes i just wish i could pick up the phone and call my dad up and talk to him, like many of my friends. That's when i realize that i don't have that option.
I miss them a lot, well i was only 16 when they passed away. Even after all these years there is just one wish i have, that has never changed, that's is for them to be besides me. I know i cant turn around time but i can just cherish the memories i have with them.

Our first Family Picture...Maa, Paa n Me (22nd September 1988)

Miss you Maa & Paa!!!

Confusion.....

I'm not sure as to what i really want in my life. Honestly when i was a kid i had other dreams and different plans for my life, and i must say i was gifted with parents who always said "Anisha you have the liberty to choose what you want to be." but i guess that bubble burst quite soon when my parents passed away.

After this i was devastated and had no clue what i wanted to do, I knew it for a fact that it was me all by myself. Soon i gathered my self and decided to move on in life and wanted to make my parents proud, now since i was on my own i had to find a job that would support my education and my life. Around that time the best option available for me was in the BPO sector so i grabbed the opportunity without a second thought. Until then i think all i had in mind was to work my ass out and earn my living and manage to finish college. Although i wanted to Designing (jewelry) i could not afford that in my situation and i made up my mind that BPO was the only option for me as i just could not afford my dreams. I completed my graduation in economics and a year after my grads i joined my current work place which I am glad to say is not a BPO.

When i joined this place i had it in my mind that i am gonna make the best out of this company, i had my goals set right and i knew what i wanted.....And now suddenly i have that same feeling all over again. Its seems like I'm lost somewhere i have no clue what i really want to do with my career. I have been thinking about this over and over again and all i conclude is NOTHING.....i don't know if this has ever happened to you when u think about something and get no conclusion on it.

I just hope i can get out of this sooner cause if i stay like this its gonna make me crazy :D

Life is a Mess!!!!

So i have been wanting to write about some things that have been revolving my mind lately.... to be honest i have no clue what has been troubling me since the last few days..... is it the stress at work, stress in my personal life or is it the stress in my friend's life that has been kept me occupied. 
Well to talk about it work stress...... there is so much i don't even know where to start with...... so if i just keep it short and simple its been a roller coaster ride all through the month.... i applied for a job posting and there are no results on it i am dying out of curiosity and honestly well work has just been busy with the constant tussles and cold wars from here and there and trust me there are more but no point mentioning them here.
Now to talk about my personal life it as always has been a mess well as usual i should say..... to be honest i am use to it now i guess, cause anytime my life is smooth and stress free i kind of get nervous thinking i fudged up somewhere LOL!!!! So i have this huge To-Do list that i have been trying to complete since i the last 3 months and guess what i have not even started on it, the icing on the cake is that i have to complete all this before Christmas and UGH!!! i have no clue how to work on it. Its been crazy this year i have never been so stressed from work somehow this time i am unable to balance out the time between work and home....

So the conclusion to this mess is that my Work-Life Balance sucks and i better do something about this soon..... or else who knows right now i am 3 months behind scheduled soon i might just be a year behind schedule LOL!!! Honestly i so don't want that to happen. I guess a little focus would help but have no clue how to do that....(any and all suggestions are welcome).

**Please comment below to to get me out of this misery, who know something might just work out.**

Just a Thought.. Cont...

So i have been really thinking a lot about whats been happening around here and trust me i am like super confused..... on one hand I have this really nice guy (Guy A) who says he loves me and is think of a long term relationship with me and on the other hand there is the guy (Guy B) i like, he says he loves me more than i can imagine  however at same time is not planing to settle down soon. Which i know means that he clearly is not looking forward to a long term thing. So this has been really a battle for me to choose who i want be with.
So here is the thing u know for years i have been alone as i lost my parents when i was 16, was in a relationship with a guy for 3 years and we broke up 2 years back when he got married, and since then i had closed my self to any possibilities of being involved with a guy. Last year when i was at my brothers wedding i met Guy B who is also my brothers best friends we liked each other and eventually met again and talked over the phone.... although he is 28years but still seems confused in life and not sure of what he wants to do... he says that he likes me a lot and cares for me and considers me as one of his closest friends. Honestly that is not enough i want more.
Now like i wrote about Guy A in my last post he is the kinda guy every girl wants.... he talks the talk makes the moves and so on. He says that he is in this forever and wants to spend his life with me, grow old with me, have a family with me. Sometimes he seems like a guy right out of a Mills & Boon Novel hahahaha. I just love the way he treats me.
However the battle here is between my Heart and Brain.... My Brain says that Guy A is the best for you and my Heart supports Guy B. I just hope this confusion  comes to an end soon.

Just a thought!!

Here i go again..... well call me a wimp but honestly i don't care what anyone thinks of me as of now, well your probably thinking what I'm talking about..... well here is the deal i think i met someone in the recent past and has gotten into my system. Now I'm kinda scared... lol!!! Well see for normal people this is good its magic.... but the kinda guys i have dated in the past the whole relationship thing is kinda scares for me....I've probably ended up getting hurt by a man more than i have bruised or broke my bone. I know what everyone says that not all 5 fingers are the same but aren't we forgetting something here..... all 5 are fingers different shapes and sizes but they all are fingers at the end of the day. i guess I'm sounding more like a person who hates men but that is so not true..... i kinda prefer male friends that female friends, i must say i have had best of friends who were guys. So cutting this out here my story....

So i guess it was a month back a boring Sunday night well i had a sleepless night and had no clue what to do.... so like anyone else would do i decided to utilize the Internet (trust me Internet is god for me true life savers) i went online and logged on to my Gtalk, now that's something i had not done in a long long time. So going through my online list i saw this guy i had added may 2 years ago and pinged him "Hey". Well certainly disappointed i got no response and i started chatting with other online friends. Next day afternoon when i got up i saw a ping from the same guy that said "Hey" and without thinking i responded the same to that he replied "Is that all I'm gonna get from u a 'hey'?" and that's how it started. For the next few days we chatted for hours and got to know each other until i felt comfortable enough to share my number with him. Well now we talk n apparently he loves me.... and wants to date me.... i seriously love talking to him, he makes me happy makes me feel special.

Well i know how people think/talk about Internet relationships..... but honestly sometimes i wonder online guys cant be that bad... i told him that we would give this thing a shot but honestly it has blown my mind away. i just don't wanna get hurt again......but at the same time i want to see what this has in store for me. I heard this quote in a movie "Life is what happens when your planning it" maybe i should take a break and see what this guy has to offer me. With an open mind i think ill get into this relationship if it works out it would be the best but if does not i really would want to Punch him on his face hahahaha!!! ..... well that's it for now so long!!!

Mah Birthday!!!!

So i know im late to post this but yeah celebrated my birthday on 22nd September..... Well what can i say it Rocked!!! Like everyone say that they are blessed with the best of friends.... i say the same but i really mean it..... thanks to my friends my birthday was drunk and rocking.........

So at exactly 12 my friend Aarti.... came to meet me at work with my favorite cake **Blueberry Cheese Cake** yumm!!! and we cut a cake in the parking of my office.....and must say it was indeed the best surprise i got.....Later she waited for me to finish my work so that we could go out for a few drinks.....well it surely did not stop at a few drinks.......after that i came to my workstation n my team had ordered a cake for me as well just love them...... i left office at 4 am............picked up some booze went to a friends place (Rahul) and drank till 1 pm........ Darn we drink like a fish hehehehe 

Later came back home in the evening and were planning to go out somewhere when my friend Jyoti (Jo) stuck my mind..... wondering why she did not call me i dialed her number and to my surprise she tell me that she has planned everything for my birthday and all i have to do is wait for the day.... confused i asked her what date it was and she answered its the 20th...........trust me i  could not stop myself from laughing and i told her that its 22nd and she has forgotten something hahahaha......

with a lot of guilt she said sorry and asked me to meet her i told her that me and Aarti were together so she called us to HYPE a club here in delhi and we partied all night..... 

The next few days were more like Ugh!!! hangover >>>> lets drink to kill it >>> darn im drunk lets party!! >> Hangover again :p